Hi.

I am back.

It’s been 3 years since I was away from the spiritual community. I was having the toughest time in my life, while all my bucketed emotions came up and consumed me. But I am fine now, or I should say, I am much stronger and maturer now.

Having a chat with my friend few days ago and mentioned about my 3 years journey in the dark. She said, “You did well. Some people cannot get out from the darkness for the entire life.” Yeah. I guess the years of spiritual practice, challenges, lessons, really prepared me well for this journey. And this is the payoff.

In spirituality practice, most of the courses out there will only teach you about positive thinking, loving each other, helping people, blah blah blah… However, the true essence and beauty of spirituality, is very very much about “Shadow-work”. Human being is fragile. We are afraid of pain, we are afraid of darkness, we are afraid of negativity. Our society try so hard to put us down and give us “values” that is convenient for the leaders to control. We put bad kids in jail, we punish them, we hate them, we throw them tomatoes. Without much thinking, most of us believed that we did the right thing and that is the way of maintaining stability of the world.

However, no one ever realize that the “shadow” is always with us. When there is light, there is shadow. Every one of us has our own weakness, our own challenges and lessons in life. No matter how hard you try to be clean, to be positive, to be a good person in life, sometimes life just gives you lemon, OHHH maybe it’s durian this time.

The deeper you go into the path of transformation, the bigger the shadow you will face. The true WARRIORS are those who dived so deep into the darkness and back.

I would like to share about my new favourite artist – Billie Eilish. Watch Billie’s Vanity Fair 3rd year interview, and you will understand what I say.

Billie’s music videos are always controversial, or annoying for some people. From the growth of the fan base, you would understand that these so called “bad taste, darkness, stinky” stuff actually hits peoples’ heart deeply. I believed Billie can push through these music, just because she is the one who dived in there and survived. She is now sharing what she experienced, truthfully.

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. And this is right.

Anyway, I am happy to be back, and I am ready to share, to serve, and to assist.

Namaste. I bow to you from my heart.

And Merry Christmas.

JS